Gut Feelings...

We all have gut feelings... that inner voice in you calling out and telling you something.

Mine is strong... especially when something is about to go wrong... and very rarely have my gut feeling been wrong. In many instances I actually thought it was nothing but only to find out much later on that I was not wrong after all.

Often, I know exactly what my gut feeling is... that's when I warn or do something about it... and that's why a lot of people I know say I am 'mulut masin'.

I can't control this feeling, it just comes as it likes. I got this feeling again last night. Just suddenly... out of nowhere... and it made me feel real shitty and I still feel shitty... that's why I am here all alone at the Daily Kopitiam in Fahrenheit88 having ciggies, coffee and blogging... trying very hard to figure out what the fuck that voice in me is trying to say.

My sayang says I'm conjuring up silly thoughts in my head... but I'm not... it's not coming from my head but rather from my heart. The last time I had such a strong feeling like this was about 5 weeks ago and that took me on an emotional rollercoaster ride which cost me 10 kilos and almost, just almost... my sanity.

Why? Why am I feeling this way? Oh, God... I wish I am wrong. I wish it is just me missing my sayang dearly. God help me please... I am very close to losing my sanity as it is.